Sometimes life seems like a holy mess!!

Yes, Sometimes life seems like a holy mes!!

You know, Today.. the world looked like a holy prison to her. Similar to the tree in her room which doesn't need an autumn to blossom, Which looks the same beautyful throughout an year, because that's just a lifeless paint on the wall. 

And to be more precise, today the world looked more like those butterflies in her room, with an ability to fly but with no willingness to run away to the uncomfortable boredom of her own skills.

She couldn’t understand what she felt like. 

It seemed like her philosophical heart was at deep rest today. Her heart wasn’t constant tonight..

Hey No, she didn’t have her heartbreak. She just didn’t feel good. 

Neither the favourite sunset time nor the smell of coffee did wonders today!! 

Even an open talk with the beautiful moon and the favourite Kenny show failed to make her feel good. 

Not to forget, the cute conversation with a cat doesn't feel like stress busting therapy this time. 

Figuring out what was wrong looked beyond her reach. 

While making all the efforts to sleep, raining sound effects from the playlist which used to work the best failed today. 

Hmmmm when she was lost somewhere in between those random blur questions in the head, there comes a call from BeshtFriend,  which unknowingly blocked all those thoughts for the duration of 91mins.. And yet after the call, those thoughts returns so fast like a child coming running home from school at 4. 

But then the cryptic silence of 2 AM was the only thing which made her realize something. 

Perhaps all she needed at that point of time was someone to tell her, “Life is a mess but you will do well.”

All she wanted to hear were the three mesmerising words, “Believe in yourself.” 

Or just one best line "I will be there with you, no matter what." Or atleast a hug, saying " Talk to me, just tell me whatever you feel, I will always listen to you even if it's nonsense."  

And also she wanted her heart to say, “It’s okay to feel numb. It’s okay to pause for a while and think what you actually wished for. It’s okay to stop understanding yourself sometimes. It's ok to have a mess inside your head, bcz you already know you're messy girl.” 

All she needed was a push, I guess. A push to tell her, “It isn’t that difficult.”

You know, even the champions needs a little encouragement at times. Because sometimes even if the life is a rainbow, we will go colourblind! 

Yes, sometimes life seems like a holy mess!!

Signing off,

Vandanaaa❤️